I just did something that I'm not proud of. And my body is letting me know. I ended up eating leftovers from last night for lunch. Which in it's self isn't a bad thing. But, the amount that I ate...therein lies the problem. I ate and ate until the entire bowl was gone. I started feeling full halfway through the meal. But, I didn't stop. I don't really know why. I just "had" to finish the entire thing. Well...I got so sick. I had to take lots of papaya enzyme tablets and 4 advil for the horrible headache I got. My stomach was reeling and I felt like it was gonna come back up any minute. I did think about just letting myself puke so that I would feel better. But, I didn't want my husband to know that I had eaten so much...so, I didn't puke. Besides, I hate puking!
Well, it's been about 2 hours since I pigged out. I can now lift my head off of the pillow and type on the computer. It would not have been possible right after I ate. I know that I am a food addict. But, this kind of obsessive eating hasn't been a problem for me in the past. That I can remember, anyway. I always had a stopping point. Maybe because now I am limiting myself to my calorie bank has made me rebel a bit.
But, as much as I hated doing this to myself... I have to say... LESSON LEARNED! I never want to feel that sick again. Especially when I made myself sick. I could have prevented the whole thing. I just lost control. But, I feel like I am back at the wheel now and I know which direction I want to go.
Thanks for reading. I feel better now that my stupidity isn't a secret anymore.
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