Monday, June 2, 2014

On a mission....

Just wanted to share that I have now lost 52 lbs.  I feel so much better!  I have 38 more to go to reach my goal.  I am on a mission and NOTHING is going to stop me.

Monday, May 12, 2014


Still working hard.  Eating clean, exercising and taking Advocare supplements. 34 lbs. lost.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

24 Day Challenge Results...

I finished my Advocare 24 Day Challenge yesterday. I lost 14 lbs and 19.5 ounces. :) I really am glad I did the challenge. I needed something to get be back on track and jumpstart my weight loss. I am eating better and exercising now. I still drink the Advocare SPARK ( which I love!) and take some of the supplements. But, the biggest change has been in my mind. I know I can do this! I am hoping to reach my goal by the end of this year. I have 66 more lbs to lose.   I didn't starve myself.  I ate 6 meals a day.  The 24 Day Challenge is a healthy way to Jumpstart your weight loss or help you break through a plateau.  Here are my BEFORE (day 1) and AFTER (day 25).

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Saturday, January 25, 2014

Starting Over After Tragedy...

I honestly don't know where to start. I haven't blogged here in almost 2 years. A lot has happened in that time. But, the life changer is that my husband committed suicide on Oct.4, 2013. It was his birthday. He had bipolar disorder. My son and I were not there when he did it. We were in another state staying with my parents. To say that we are still struggling to understand his actions is an understatement. He went to his sister's house and shot himself on her front porch. I know that it wasn't my fault. I know that, now. But, I struggled with it. Life with him was hell. I loved him with all my heart...but, he was a hard man to live with. He had demons that he was dealing with on a daily basis and there was nothing I could do to help him. He wouldn't let me. He was emotionally and mentally abusive to me and our 8 year old son. He would take his meds and he was fine. Then, he would start drinking with his meds. Then, he would just stop the meds and drink more often. He was a monster when he wasn't on meds. He was worse than that when he drank. This pattern went on for 9 years. He just found out that he had bipolar disorder 4 years before he died. He hated that he lost so many years to the disease he didn't know he had. He used to say that if he had been on meds years before he was... his life would have been so much better. He felt like he was cheated by the bipolar disorder. Cheated out of who he could have been as opposed to who he ended up being. I am sorry that I am rambling. I haven't written about this before. Not really. Just a few words on FB about his death. I keep hearing that it will take time to "get over" his death. But, I am not so sure that I will ever get over it. He called me and wanted me and our son to come back home after we got to my parent's house. I told him that I couldn't go back to the life we had. And that I wouldn't bring our son back into it, either. He was so angry. He was used to me doing whatever he said. But, I had made my mind up. I wasn't going back. He realized that, I guess. The last time I talked to him was by email. It was 2 hours before he shot himself. He said that I better read my bible. He said God didn't want us to divorce. Then, I got a call from his sister saying that he had come to her house and killed himself on her front porch. It's been almost 4 months since his death. Christmas was so hard. He loved the holidays. But, we are moving forward. My family has been so supportive and have helped my son and I so much. We have been living with my parents since The end of Sept. 2013. But, we are moving into our own apartment in 7 days. As far as weight loss... which is what this blog is supposed to be about...I am on day 21 of the Advocare 24 day challenge and have lost 13 lbs. I am eating right again and exercising. In spite of the tragedy of losing my husband... I am finally finding myself under the fat. Each day is a gift from God.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Hello...I'm Not Dead.

Guess Who?  I have had one interesting year.  It has been over a year since I posted.  I am currently on a leave of absence from one of my jobs due to carpal tunnel surgery on both hands.  Just had the stitches taken out of the last one 2 days ago.  I have vertigo and my doctors can't find out why.  I have numbness in my feet and toes.  My memory is horrible.  My primary doctor seems to think that I may have MS.  But, the MRI showed no lesions.  Oh, and last Saturday night, I was walking down my stairs and failed to see my black cat... I stepped on her and ended up falling down the last 6 steps.  My ankle started to swell immediately.  So, DH took me to the ER.  I have a pulled ligament and am having to wear an aircast and use crutches.  I am a walking disaster.  lol.

Now, on the the weight side of things... I have been out of work for 2 months and have gained 7 lbs.  UGH!  It is so much harder to control my portions when I am home all day.  I am not currently following WW.  My weight loss started to stall.  So, I thought I could handle things on my own.  NOT!  I know some folks can... but, not me.  I need a plan to follow.  So, I am currently deciding how to go about getting myself on track again.  It will help so much when I go back to work.  Which is the first of May.  Of course being laid up in bed with my ankle isn't helping either.

So much for the pity party!  I am actually doing very well...considering.  My husband and I started a business.  (Like I need another job, lol).  We have a booth in the local flea market.  He is selling fishing rods and tackle and I am selling baby things.  I am having a blast!  I love all of the little clothes and shoes.  I sold a crib today. I love having the extra money that this brings.  Especially since I am not working at Walmart right now.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Easter!  And not to get too preachy, but... HE IS RISEN!  :)


Thursday, February 17, 2011

Still going DOWN!

My weigh in this week is 197.8.  That's a 1.2 lb. loss.  What am I doing differently?  I am paying attention to portion sizes, getting lots of walking in and tracking my points.  I am also allowing myself a weekly splurge.  I have 49 weekly points that I can use whenever I want during the week.  I have been using every one of them.  lol.  It works for me.  I am not losing too fast.  I feel that I am being consistent.  The only drawback that I have found so far is the extra belly skin.  UGH!  Now that my stomach doesn't look like I am about to give birth any minute... my skin is all bumpy and saggy.  Oh well... Maybe in time it will get better.  A girl can hope... can't she??

Oh, and I am also drinking lots more water.  It's all I am allowed to drink while I am working.  So, it started out as a sort of "have to" situation.  But, now I really like it.

Have a great day!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Weight Watchers etools

I have a bad habit where if I eat something that I think may be totally off the charts in points (or calories)...I tend to screw up  my whole eating plan for the rest of the day.  I think to myself..."well, I have already screwed today up.  I might as well eat this piece of candy.  Or I might as well eat anything I want now.  I know... BAD!  This is why I am FAT!  I rationalize with myself.  I am so trying to break that habit.

Well, weight watchers etools are coming in handy in that area.  I made some spanish rice with cheese, sour cream and salsa last night.  I was hungry and it was what was leftover in the fridge.  Anyway.... I thought to myself,  "this is going to be 15 points or more."  But, when I put it into my tracker... it was just 7 points.  Granted that was a lot of points at once.  But, I had the extra points to use.  I was amazed at the difference in  how many points I thought it was and how many it actually was.  That taught me a lesson.  Instead of just guessing at how many points things are and screwing up my plan for the day...I need to put EVERYTHING into my tracker.  It may be more than I think it is or it may be less.  But, I am no longer going to be guessing.  Or just using excuses so that I can eat whatever and how much I want.

I have a lot of rethinking and relearning to do about eating.  And about food in general.  As of right now... I am not in control of my eating.  I am taking baby steps one meal at a time.  But, I am learning with every step.  I am making mistakes and I am learning from them.  But, I am also making progress.  This is just a moment in a long journey ahead of me.  And I know that the journey doesn't end when I meet my goal.  It just continues in a different direction. 

Thanks to all of you who read my ramblings and post such encouraging comments.  I appreciate them so much!