Well, I have been avoiding this blog like the plague. I have been feeling guilty. I have had bad eating days for three days in a row. I didn't pig out...I just ate over my calories. I feel so FAT today. I am bloated and I just feel rotten. I tried to get back on track yesterday. Then, I tried to get back on track today. I haven't been able to get my mind back on track. What is wrong? I lost 3 lbs. last week. I was so psyched. Monday...I ate good. Then, Tuesday rolled around and I was STARVING! It has been like that yesterday and today, too. I am craving tomato sauce. Something savory and saucy. Maybe I am going to have a visit from AF soon. I have been taking metformin for a while now and it is supposed to help in that area. I have been having horrible mood swings and headaches, too.
Anyway...they say confession is good for the soul. Maybe I just need to "come clean" before I can forgive myself and move on. I hate this downward spiral. It's like I can't allow myself to mess up. I punish myself. Crazy, huh?
Okay... I have confessed. I must admit... I do feel a bit better. The next couple of days are going to be difficult. Now that I have screwed up...I need to have a long talk with myself. I have worth. I am capable of getting healthy. I NEED to get healthy.
I hope I can move forward tomorrow. I don't need any more days of bad choices.