2 More Kicked to the Curb...

I lost 2 more pounds!  I am super excited.  It's amazing to me how easy this is.  I have tried so many different "diets" over the years.  It was always a struggle.  I ended up giving up because it was just too hard.  I usually had to make two meals.  One for me and one for the rest of the family.  Now, I can eat what I want as long as I don't go over my calories.  It's just so mind blowing.  It's so simple.  lol.

Hubby and I have decided that we are going to go to the grocery store and buy a fruit or veggie that we have never tried.   We want to eat something new once a week.  I think that would be so cool.   Yesterday we got a fresh pineapple (never had a fresh one).  Hubby peeled and cored it.  Then he grilled it.  Talk about YUMMY!   I am used to canned pineapple.  I may never want canned again.  lol.  It was so sweet and juicy.  And it didn't have a "tin" flavor from the can. 

I have been working more hours.  Hence fewer posts to my blog.  I was feeling guilty about it...but, I am over that.  This is my blog.  I will not be made to feel guilty if I don't post every day.  lol.  That's what I had to tell myself.  I have enough guilt in my life without adding any more.  Homeschool takes up a lot of time.  I am getting a new study unit together.  I'm trying to get a couple of months ahead.  I want to have everything printed out that I need and just be able to get what I need for each day and not be fumbling around trying to find things.  I simply need more organization.  It will come.  I started working again in November.  And I am still trying to find a balance between school and work. 

I was thinking the other day...my life is one big SYNDROME.  Seriously, I have PCOS, IBS, RLS and occasionsal PMS.   lol.  I know weight loss will help the pcos.  Not sure about the others.  Guess we will see.  :)

Time...

Thanks, Kim! :)

It's funny how time flies and things just get away from you.  I haven't posted here since Monday.  I kept meaning to get over here and at least say "I'm still here".  But, I have been so tired the last few days.  I have been going to bed early.  I usually try to post at night when everyone is asleep and I have a few mins to myself...but, lately that hasn't worked out.  I have today off from work.  I have been working more hours and homeschooling takes a lot of my left over time.  It sounds like I am trying to make excuses.  I'm not.  I am just trying to figure out where all of my time goes.  lol. 

I have been doing really good.  My calories are where I want them to be and I feel great.  I had a NSV yesterday.  While getting ready for work...I put on a pair of jeans that I hadn't worn in a while.  I used to have to lay down to get them zipped.  But, yesterday they zipped right up!  I was so excited.  I went to work feeling "skinnier".  lol.  Little things like that keep me motivated.  No one has commented on my weight loss.  It's still too early for others to be able to tell.  But, that will come in time.

Food Log~ April 19, 2010

Monday:

B~Kelloggs mini wheats= 298

S~ Kelloggs mini wheats= 298

L~ mushroom soup and grilled cheese sandwich= 400

D~  2 hot dogs with cheese= 560

S~ 3 chicken nuggets = 135

Total~ 1691


I hope everyone had a good Monday.  Mine was busy.  I had lots of rooms to clean today.  But, the upside is that I got lots of exercise.  lol.  My back, legs and feet hurt after work today.  I had to take some advil.  Needless to say, I got a workout.  My calories were under control today.  I had a yummy lunch.  Mushroom soup and a grilled cheese sandwich.  So satisfying.  Tomorrow is one of my days off.  That is when I struggle to keep my calories in check.  It's supposed to be sunny tomorrow, so after school is over...I am planning on taking Joshua outside to ride his bike.  He rides...I walk.  lol.  And that kid can ride a long time.  The other day he rode for 90 mins. I was walking right beside him.  And he was going faster and faster to see if I could keep up with him.  lol.  And I did!  That's fun for us.  I still need to get to the grocery store.  Maybe I can do that tomorrow evening.  We'll see.  Have a great night!

FYI:  Food Network is EVIL!  lol.  They make the best looking stuff on there. I got to change it.  BYE!

Food Log: Sunday April, 18 2010 and She's H-E-R-E...

My food choices weren't so diet friendly today because I need to go shopping.  But, I did stay within my calories. Woo Hoo!

B~ pancakes and sausage= 710

L~ french Fries= 355

D~ Grilled Sirloin Steak, Grilled zucchini= 510

S~ watermelon= 46
Total: 1621

See...not really "diet" food.  I hope to do better next week.

And on another note...I have found the cause of my recent issues.   AF reared her head today.  I am actually happy!  This is the first time in over 3 years.  The metformin worked.  I have been taking it since January and today it worked!   I am crampy and grouchy.  But, I feel like my cravings are not so intense.  I feel more "in control."  My husband grilled steak and zucchini for dinner.  I took a pic.  I'm not so good with presentation...but, it was so yummy!

Have a great night!

Weekly Weigh in...

So, after almost a week of crappy eating...I gained a pound.  I have to say that I'm not surprised.  I actually expected more.  So, I will accept the consequences of my bad choices and move forward. 

I am committing to post my food log each day.  So, I will be back later to post what I ate today.


Later...

Things Are Going Better...

Today was better.  I'm still not quite where I want to be.  But, I'm not stressing about it anymore.  That just made things worse.  I did eat better today.  I am just still so hungry.  But, I've increased my exercise.  So, that's good.  I'm struggling with cooking for my family.  I tend to want to eat more if there is a big meal.  My husband wants big meals.  I do better when meals consist of small amounts with light ingredients.  So, I need to be able to control myself when I cook big meals.  I'm not trying to blame anyone or anything for my lack of self control.  It's all my fault.  I should be able to control my appetite no matter what size the meal is. 

I want to say a big THANKS to all who commented on my last post.  Your encouragement was needed and appreciated.  It's good to know that I am not alone in my struggles.  I'm putting one foot in front of the other and trudging forward.  No matter how rocky the road ahead is.   I am committed to losing this weight.  I know I would feel so much better.   Not to mention how much better I would look.  That is just an added bonus.  

So, here's to tomorrow...may we all have great days full of good choices.

Hello...

Well, I have been avoiding this blog like the plague.  I have been feeling guilty.  I have had bad eating days for three days in a row.  I didn't pig out...I just ate over my calories.  I feel so FAT today.  I am bloated and I just feel rotten.  I tried to get back on track yesterday.  Then, I tried to get back on track today.  I haven't been able to get my mind back on track.  What is wrong?  I lost 3 lbs. last week.  I was so psyched.  Monday...I ate good.  Then, Tuesday rolled around and I was STARVING!  It has been like that yesterday and today, too.  I am craving tomato sauce.  Something savory and saucy.  Maybe I am going to have a visit from AF soon.  I have been taking metformin for a while now and it is supposed to help in that area.  I have been having horrible mood swings and headaches, too.

Anyway...they say confession is good for the soul.  Maybe I just need to "come clean" before I can forgive myself and move on.  I hate this downward spiral.  It's like I can't allow myself to mess up.  I punish myself.  Crazy, huh?

Okay... I have confessed.  I must admit... I do feel a bit better.  The next couple of days are going to be difficult.  Now that I have screwed up...I need to have a long talk with myself.  I have worth.  I am capable of getting healthy.  I NEED to get healthy.  

I hope I can move forward tomorrow.  I don't need any more days of bad choices.

Weekly Weigh In...

I LOST 3 LBS!  Yea me!  This is really working.  I am so happy.  When I started trying to lose weight in January, I went on an intense detox.  I lost 10 lbs.  But, I hated eating that way.  Of course, detox isn't meant to be a long term way of eating.  Then, I just kinda maintained until March.  That is when I joined blogger and started trying to find something that worked for me.  I had gotten advise from my doctor in January to lose weight.  My PCOS was out of control and my bloodwork wasn't good. 

Anyway, here I am on April 11 and I have lost 16 lbs.  I started out at 240 and am now 224.  I finally feel like I can do this.  I got some really good advice from Chris and Kim.  They really helped me get motivated.  Thanks girls!

And I am happy to announce that the Easter candy ran out on Friday.  Chocolate is a big temptation for me.  I gave in a few times...but, I always counted it in my calories.  ;)

So, I am looking forward to another week of good eating and good choices.  I gotta get off of the computer now to finish getting ready for church. 

Have a great day!

Food Log: Wednesday~ April 7, 2010

April 7th, 2010


B~ nada

L~Deli Turkey  200
Kraft Deli Deluxe American White Slices  160
Wonder Stoneground 100% Whole Wheat Bread  360 
Kraft Miracle Whip 120

D~Great Northern Beans Dried  420

S~Palmer Butter Cream Flavored Eggs 230 (darn chocolate!)
Total: 1,490 

I was rushed yesterday morning and didn't have time for breakfast before I went to work.  I was starved by the time I got home.  I ended up have 2 turkey sandwiches for lunch!  So, I was stuffed until late in the evening. 

Today... I didn't have to work.  So, I had plenty of time to eat this morning.  Of course, when I am not working, I want to eat all day.  UGH!   But, I am being good and staying out of the kitchen.  lol.

Food Log ~ Tuesday: April 6, 2010

I haven't been posting my food log lately.  I just kinda got out of the habit.  I have been eating okay.  I just haven't posted it.  So, I am starting again...


Tuesday~

B~ Sliced Bacon  156 
Jumbo Eggs  180 
Kraft Deli Deluxe American Cheese Slices 2% Milk  80 

S~ Fresh Grapefruit  35 

L~  hot dog~ 340

D~ White Navy Beans  630 
Cornbread

S~ Palmers Peanut Butter Cup 58


Total: 1479

Joshua and I went for a long walk today.  I also did housekeeping for 4 hours.  So, I did get some exercise today.  Yea me!  lol.  I have been having a bit of chocolate the last couple of days.  I will be glad when it's all gone.  But, the good thing is that I have been limiting myself to just one piece a day.  And I am accounting for it in my calories.   The weather is so nice today that I may get one more good walk in before dark.  Talk to you all later.

Am I a Food Addict?

Before I started this weight loss journey my answer to that question would have been... "absolutely not."  But, since doing some soul searching and reading other weight loss blogs...I have started to ask myself if it is possible that I am a food addict.  I have always considered myself an emotional eater.  I eat when I am upset.  I eat when I am happy.  I eat when I am sad.   I eat when I am afraid.  Basically, I eat all of the time.  But, an addict?   That sounds so, you know...bad.   When I think about an addict, the first thing that comes to mind is drugs.  A drug addict has to have their drugs.  We all have to have food.  Don't we?  So, how could a person be addicted to food if it is something that our body needs?  I was asking myself all of these questions.  Then, I looked up the definition of  "food addict".  Here is what I found.

A food addiction is any disorder characterized by a preoccupation with food. Among the disorders associated with food addiction are anorexia, bulimia, and compulsive eating. Food addicts gain pleasure from the anticipation, availability, and ingestion of food.

Food addicts can also be obsessed with the amount of food they eat, with body weight, and image. There are times when a food addict will not even realize that they are addicted to food. To them, it is a way of life and not a problem. It is only in intervention from family and friends that the food addict will be able to admit to themselves they have a problem.

  I also found some symptoms of food addiction...

Food Addiction Symptoms

If you suspect you or someone you know of having a food addiction, here are some early warning signs for you to look for to help you with early detection of food addiction.

Obsessed with thoughts about food.

Eats to relieve worry or stress.

Eats until they feel sick.

Feels anxious while eating.

Worries or feels anxious while eating which results in more eating.

Overeats because the food is there.

Eats too fast so they can eat more.

Eats everything on the plate even when they feel full.

Feels guilty when they overeat.

Hides food so they can eat in secret away from other people.

Goes on a food binge after dieting or after trying to cut back.

Does not like the feeling of being hungry.

Sees food as something to be avoided or as harmful

HELLO! That is me in a nutshell!  I AM A FOOD ADDICT!  It's crazy...but, knowing that I am a food addict seems to help me understand what I have been going through.  Does that make any sense?  Yes, I am an emotional eater.  That is a symptom of a food addict.  I feel like my eyes have finally been opened.  Now, I just have to find out what to do about my addiction.  I feel good about my recent weight loss.  Coutning calories has made me feel like I am doing something positive for myself.  I just need to figure out what do do with my new found realization that I am an addict.  More soul searching and research is needed.  But, I feel like I am on the right track.

Weekly Weigh In

Happy Easter!   Today is my weigh in.  I lost 2 lbs!  I have been sick for the last few days.  I am feeling better today.  Just really sleepy.  I didn't make good choices the last couple of days.  So, I'm glad I was able to lose 2 lbs this week.  Now I am at 227. 

I need to go to sleep... I will be back later to continue this post.

UGH!

I have a cold.  I feel like doggy doo.  My head hurts and I can't breath.  I will hopefully be back tomorrow to post my food.