I have a bad habit where if I eat something that I think may be totally off the charts in points (or calories)...I tend to screw up my whole eating plan for the rest of the day. I think to myself..."well, I have already screwed today up. I might as well eat this piece of candy. Or I might as well eat anything I want now. I know... BAD! This is why I am FAT! I rationalize with myself. I am so trying to break that habit.
Well, weight watchers etools are coming in handy in that area. I made some spanish rice with cheese, sour cream and salsa last night. I was hungry and it was what was leftover in the fridge. Anyway.... I thought to myself, "this is going to be 15 points or more." But, when I put it into my tracker... it was just 7 points. Granted that was a lot of points at once. But, I had the extra points to use. I was amazed at the difference in how many points I thought it was and how many it actually was. That taught me a lesson. Instead of just guessing at how many points things are and screwing up my plan for the day...I need to put EVERYTHING into my tracker. It may be more than I think it is or it may be less. But, I am no longer going to be guessing. Or just using excuses so that I can eat whatever and how much I want.
I have a lot of rethinking and relearning to do about eating. And about food in general. As of right now... I am not in control of my eating. I am taking baby steps one meal at a time. But, I am learning with every step. I am making mistakes and I am learning from them. But, I am also making progress. This is just a moment in a long journey ahead of me. And I know that the journey doesn't end when I meet my goal. It just continues in a different direction.
Thanks to all of you who read my ramblings and post such encouraging comments. I appreciate them so much!